November 2, 2006 § 2 Comments
I’ve had a really, really rough week, but you’d* never know it by seeing me. I’m a terrible liar (I always laugh and give it away), but maybe I’m a pretty good actress when it comes to acting like everything’s rosy. Denying something’s wrong since I can’t make much sense of it. Or making sense of it, but not knowing what to do next?
Therapist #2 says that turning feelings inward creates depression, whereas turning feelings outward brings balance. I don’t really know what to say about it, so I don’t. I don’t really know how to write about it, so you don’t see it here. And (most obviously) I haven’t a clue what to do about it. I’m running out of outlets, so here I am… depressed.
But of course, you’d never really know it.
* apparently does not apply to my mom, whose mystical asian superpowers continue to surprise me