Jumping out the window
March 16, 2007 § 10 Comments
Waking up this morning was like waking up to the first day of school – full of the giddy, unknown excitement that’s ahead.
So many things have happened in the last few weeks that I can’t recall them all… all I know is that everything I knew that was stable and secure has disintegrated, and the things that were shaky and somewhat broken have become solidified and bonded like none before.
At first I was scared, sad and hurt, but it’s as if I woke up from a bad dream and realized that there wasn’t a need for it at all. I’d been so unhappy for so long that I had almost gotten used to being miserable, and for some stupid reason I kept holding on to it because that was all I had known. But now? I’m so happy and so excited about the future that I can barely keep still.
I was toasted by friends the other night “to change,” and now I’m definitely ready to jump out the window.
. . . .
“… you know you’ll change your life for any ordinary Joe,
and though your night will go on,
your nightmares only need a year or two to unfold …
you don’t know how long I’ve been
watching the lantern dim starved of oxygen
so give me your hand and let’s jump out the window …”